Dear God, show us the road
that you have chosen for us,
and give us the courage
to walk down it... Amen

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Cold...Rain...Pain...

"Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I fear no evil; for you are with me."
-Psalm 23:4

I'm watching the rain, pouring, stream forms...flash flooding possible. More than 3" fell that day. As I look at the mess it left behind, I think of the pain grief leaves behind. Five of seven days last week brought me grief.

Rewind -
2008 brought many changes to our lives...not just for my family, for many. Mark lost his job, I returned to work, big adjustment being away from my boys. Cody turns 17 and has his first car accident just one week after. I begin to worry about Jesse Ray academically. He's bored, hates school. How do I make him understand? The first of these, still lingers...living on less than half of what we had before August, brings grief, worry. We manage, but there isn't enough extra for three unexpected Dr. visits for sick (no insurance)...not enough for tow bill...Cody's truck breaks down in another town, just a week after spending much on a new clutch. My car - transmission ?...letting it go to care for Cody's. New car insurance statement goes up almost $300. My boys were turned down for Tenn Care. Only a temporary necessity until Mark finds employment with benefits. The reason...we are over the income limit. Is that possible?

If I hide behind a seemingly perfect life, I pour out untruth. So I share, because life is like that sometimes. The seasons are not exactly desirable, yet I, we, are still very blessed. Like the rain, and grief, blessings are poured out heavy each day if I am willing to see, feel them. I learn that it is how I deal with theses circumstances that will make a difference.

So I have a dream, to build a home, every detail in mind...a special room for the boys, their friends. I have a home, humble as it is, it is mine, and truth is, friends probably feel quiet comfortable in our small nest. I can't forget my cabin...a dream, a wish, that is real ~ it's mine. The most important thing, we are all together, and healthy, and we are not in fear of losing everything like so many are right now. So if it never comes to pass, I will accept, I will love, praise him. Whatever it takes to bring him Glory.




Today, my wish, that you will find Joy, even if it be a small Joy...His Love, Grace, is unending. His Hope, Peace comes freely.


The path of faith takes us not around dark places but through them

God in Heaven, soften my heart in clay to be a servant . Help me find Joy, Peace when it rains in my life. Help me see clearly the path you have laid before me, and show me what you need me to do.

(photos)
flooding, Colt enjoying a drink, my cabin

6 comments:

ctlogcabin said...

Sherry ~~ Keep Dreaming and hold on the Joy & Blessings you have. Thanks for sharing.
Sending Good Thoughts, Prayers and
Hugs ~ Connie xox

Cabin Creek Farm said...

We are all fighting something in our lives, whether it be physical, financial or emotional. You have certainly been through so much this past year and yet you find such goodness in us. You share with us even through your own pain and worries. You are a giving and compassionate woman. I am so blessed to call you friend. Keep dreaming because dreams do come true :)

Wendy said...

Sherry, it is a testament to hear all you have been through and are going through and yet you still Praise HIM!! God is so good and HE will give you the desires of your heart,What you are going through is just for a season!! God Bless you and your family!~Wendy

Thistlebrooms said...

I'm Glad you finally shared Sherry...People need to know everything is 'NOT' always a bed of Roses...
Since I met you, I believe of ALL the people I know YOU deserve ONLY the Best...It will happen my friend...Keep Your Dreams...
Love...Marilyn

SweetAnnee said...

your life this year has not been
easy
I am praying for better days for
all ..
God Bless You BIG.

love you
Deena

Lana said...

Sherry, God will not let us endure more than we can withstand. Things will work out ~ just keep the faith. I know what you are going through in some instances (as we are dealing or have dealt with some of the same), and it's tough, but God is with us always.